BORING, RINDU, JAI, KK, KL, LIFE.. BLA BLA

Oh, betapa ku rindu kan c jai. Oeeeeeeeeeeee!!! Muhammad Ruzaini Bin M. Haron.
Is at Kota kinabalu Sabah! Its been a year since i have been in kk. Alot have changed. I do not quite remember the road around tanjung aru and the KKIA airport. That is because the new flyover road has been opened, and is now in used by the public. Also, was suppose to have this buka puasa with my friends, Zabrina and khairul at Capital, that is situated near karamunsing. I was surprised and shock that i don't even know the way to Capital Karamunsing. But the other day, i followed my parents to buy some buka puasa food at the bazaar ramadhan, situated in asia city. My dad sengaja lalu area2 karamunsing and i saw the capital shop lots. So i kinda figured out the way to capital. Hahaha.. funneyh..

I miss my Jai so much!!! huhuu. Can't wait for september really. Gonna get the new iphone 5. So it means that got the macbook pro 15 inch, iphone 5 (september baru dapat- insyallah), Ipad-my syg punya.. his iphone 4 which dia pigi jual.. adaka! I'm a macky wacky macintosh freak! So currently he is using black berry bold. Boring! Dia suruh saya pakai BB juga. Dia bilang boleh BBM, senang. Then i said, tidak payah, kita punya digi easy prepaid, sudah Bagus betul sdh nie. Free sms and call to friends and family. Memang FREE OK. paid good money for it too! So, with digi easy prepaid, memang tidak payah risau la about credit. :P U just top up like what 5 ringgit? so that the credit keeps on valid. As long as your credit is valid you can have your free calls and sms to your FF number. Even when you have RM0.00 of credit remaining. But rules are rules, the credit remaining must be valid before the credit expires. :P

I find that kk is a bit boring when you just sit at home and do nothing. But not to worry, psp sentiasa ada. So i can play games! especially RPG games! woohoo!!! I am currently playing final fantasy 7. I am at the middle of the story right now. Can't wait to finish the game. After i finish final fantasy 7, i will play final fantasy 8, after 9, then 10 and then so on.. weeeeeee xD...

What will i do if i am still in KL? oh yea! Go wangsa maju, go see my jai! miss him laaaa!!! addddoiiiii... :P At least i can go anywhere i want if i am in kl. KK??? boleh la... but boring bha the places. :P bulan puasa lagi ni.. memang terperap dalam rumah la jak ni. :P if its not puasa, prolly will go sutera? 1b? pisang hijau!!! confirm! the pulau pulau! hehehe... ahhhh... the atmosphere in kk is really different then in kl. It is really calm. Susah hati jgk kadang2 dgn relax2 ni. :P

k la.. its 12a.m!!! sa mo gayut luk sm laki aku!! hehehe... bye!

Stay tuned:
Deekay

Moments

Sometimes there are moments in life where you feel that "aweeee, that's funny, cool!!, damn fucked up!, shit!, hahahaha... and etc.." And sometimes we just gotta accept the fact that not all we trust in.

Friends come and go. None stayed forever. If i could just find the right friend for me, like heaven on earth, although there's none. I do have some friends who are like that, But, since leaving primary school everything changed. Still contact though, but not that much. Because each of us have our own set of goals, aim and business to attend. So that is why, time is gold. Need to find the most suitable time to hang out with them again.

Its hard to find the right friend for me. Most of them end up condemning me due to their jealousy. If its not due to jealousy, than it must be a gold digger kinda friend, fake, double face, taking advantage, idiosyncratic kinda person. But some how, i manage to get rid of those people before things turn out worst. Example of the definition of the worst friend is my previous high school friend, Previous uitm friends in kedah, and my previous classmates.

A lone ranger, free from any ties and bond. Could move freely wherever i want to without any boundaries. Urghhh, i'm being so skeptic that sometimes i feel that my boyfriend is my friend, best friend and a sweetheart. Because he is always there whenever i need a friend in need. Whenever i need a shoulder to cry on. And when there is doubt in any situation, he is always there to be supportive of me.

Sometimes there is also a moment where when you think back all the joyful memories you had with them, you kinda miss that moment. Because it is a one time moment in your life where you feel that you are lucky to experience all the things that you had done with them.

Anyway, time flies. So its time to move on. live free, just have lots of friend. Don't be picky. :)

FuSh

Do you know what it feels like doing absolutely nothing? Fucked up? annoyed? Bored? Lazy? Yea.. 4 month of sem break. I wanted to work, but my brother had to drag me and force me to work 1st of june. Dammit! And now i'm bored as hell!! I need to work. I can't sit down doing nothing, because i am so lame in doing it.

Anyway, i don't see the point of doing this shit.

Oh i just updated my resume. Well i need to, because i'd be doing my intern next year feb. There are few companies that called and booked me. However, i still need to return them my agreement base on which company am i considering to work. Where the fuck will you get an intern that pays you around rm500-rm1000? pandai pilih la. Resume Hebat, Result Gempak, Experience and skills ada, memang confirm la kena kejar. However, they want me to do an intern for 3-4 month in which i can't, and they sanggup consider my 1 month intern.. heeeeeeeee xD

stay tune;
:)

BORROWING THINGS

Kalau orang tu yang pinjam barang kita, She's the one that is suppose to give it back. Kenapa pula kita yang perlu ambil? Yang meminjam itu is responsible towards the stuff that she borrowed from me. Rosak, Hilang, tolong ganti. Even though we are no more friends. Please and thank you.

Meminjam tetap PINJAM. It is not yours. Bukan duit kau yang diguna. If you say that it is yours because i was neglected/late to take it, than you are considered as stealing my property.

I've been silent for all these years when you started to borrow, hoping that you would realize the fact. Its been 2 years. You know what you should do.

Aku mau pg sana pun susah, nnt conflict la, tarik muka la, tidak kena layan la. Itu yang aku tidak suka. Its either i pick it up and buat duh, or i'll ask someone else to do it for me.

I dislike this.

Space Club

Helo and Alohaaaaaa xD

Last night, me, dinda, jai and andy went to space club at the Asian Heritage site. Well as usual the babes got free entry plus free drinks. I chose coke and Vodka. Vodka i gave it to dinda and andy. I took the coke. Hahaha..

Anyway the boys entry was rm50. We just paid the cover charge and yet we got great tables. Talk about going early to a club. We went there around 11. The place was almost fully booked by people. Luckily we got a really nice set of tables. Ada hikmah dtg awal. In which i myself tidak pernah pigi clubbing that early. Hahahaha xD

Anyway, the club was packed around 12.30 a.m. Lambat they all dtg. Lambat mcm mn pun, The music was GREAT!! Jai can't stop dancing. I can't stop dancing as well. Dinda and her hubby Andy was having a great time. In the end, all of us had a really great time without any alcohol in our bellies. :)

Had so much fun spending time with my jai and also with dinda and andy. xD Next time i know who to bring if i wanna go clubbing again :)

You don't need a large group of people to enter a club. Few close acquaintance would make the night a fun and memorable one :)

Till then:
Stay tune
Deekay xD

Ambuyat case

Greetings and all. Heeeee xD Last monday, this week la. Me, Jai, Dinda and andy went for a little outing. It was fun! Had launch at the BB chicken rice place. After launch, me and dinda planned to go shopping for my baju. And so, we went to sungai wang, while jai and andy went to lowyat with little ayeed. So its like, 2 boys walking around lowyat carrying a baby? how's that sound. Hahahaha. Anyway, had great time with dinda. It was like, she helped me alot in choosing the type of clothes that i wanted. Saya yang mau membeli dia pula yang bersungguh sungguh cari. hahaha.. funneyh~ xD Your such a good friend dinda! hahaha.. Here's a picture of me and dinda.. :)


Taken in Pavilion. After we went shopping and sending off ayeed back home. Hahahaha... side effect of eating ambuyat. Doinaaaa...

Anyhow, while we were waiting for our movie to start at 12.40 A.M, Me, jai, dinda and andy went momom at one of the mamak place around BB. Jalan Kaki la, apa lagi. Hahahaha. And it just stop raining, but still, our clothes a bit wet. Hahaha.. banyak la ambil gambar around pavi. Teda kerja kan, camni la jadi.







And so after the gila-ness. We watch Thor in pavi. Nah kan betul jgk c jai tertidur tidur dlm movie. Hahahahaha... Anywayssss... had fun time with the husband and wife trio (dinda and andy) and also my syg jai!!!.. Hahaha.. hidup and have fun kena steady bha.. xD

YOU ARE NOTHING

Today was A NOT that fullfilling day for me as i found out something shocking.
It happened just now, in the afternoon. I was surfing the net as always la. And so, i sometimes would log in into jai's account in facebook, and would just check out his account. All of a sudden, i clicked on the friend request thing, and it showed me something shocking that i spontaneosly said "Pukimak punya Bangsat". Guess who add Jai? That's right, its that asshole! I called Jai immediately, and Jai told me that it was the second time that person add him. The first one was last night. Jai rejected him straight away. And so, i did what a typically loyal and caring bini would do. Rejected him, for the second time that he add jai, and blocked him straight away. Jai blocked him from my facebook account, and i blocked him from Jai's facebook account. So me and jai are equal. :)

So who's been searching for who exactly? its been more than a year. All i can do and say is. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!! PADAN MUKA! YOU DESERVE IT! WHEN I WAS THERE YOU THREW ME, WITH YOUR CULTURE SHOCK BEHAVIOR WITH WOMAN. AND NOW THAT I AM FINALLY HAPPY WITH THE GUY I'M WITH, THERE YOU ARE CAME KNOCKING ON MY DOOR. For your info, that door is never EVER, gonna be opened for YOU! Because YOU ARE NOTHING!

Napa? dengki kau aku bahagia? mana sdh ayam2 kau? teda yang setia sm ko? ko pun 2x5, tidak boleh dipercayai.

My loyalty is for jai. My heart is for Jai only. Because i am faithfull. Is always being faithfull since the beginning. You are nothing compared to Jai. He is waaaaaaaaaaaaaaay better then you.

so till then;
stay tune
deekay :)

I KNOW WHO'S THE CULPRIT

Same class. trying to kasi "kena" me. Tidak apa satu tanah juga. i am not going to stop nor giving up. Because i know who i am. May GOD give you your judgement.

car incident

it was Yesterday when it all happen. was going to class at usual around 1 p.m in the afternoon. my class starts at 2. so anyway, i got network test that time, i finished early so i went to my car and caught this kancil was so near to it!! tgk2 betul jgk dia p lggr!! left a note on her car.. so she called me, well .. ok i was not suppose to say ayat2 kasar.. and i said sorry n plus dia tidak mengaku that it was her fault. i sent an mms of the incident, baru la she want to slowly adapt to her fault. haih.. later i update pictures of it ... bodoh!!!

Ruzaini, Along, Jai, i think kojai pun ada.. and sayang

Many names been called but only one reference that i would put on him. And that is Sayang. Just like any other relationships, some would prefer to be called mama, or papa, or Ling, or wa and etc... But i stick with only one, 'sayang', because it means alot to me. Sayang is describe as your feelings towards another person. But how come i don's use other names to called my loved ones? It is because, when i use the word 'sayang', i feel the intense feeling of 'love' when i call him. I feel the connection between me and him and that is what matters. That is why i call him sayang. Of course other certain people that i hear calling their loved ones 'sayang' is kinda yucky, but when you yourself experience it, you yourself would realize the feeling that grows in it. But not to the extent where when you said it, your other half would make yucky faces towards you.

Anyway, my finals are coming. Another 4 more weeks. Damn.. :P Ita been raining ever since. Everytime i wash the car, it always rains tomorrow, or at night. So therefore, i'll wash the car when it gets really dirty. I always wash the car on weekends but seemingly that it always rains on weekends. Then i have to delay it till.... wash it when the time is right. Really need to have a cleaning on it. *sigh*...

Its been a year and 5 month since that incident happen. Why am i writing this, its because it is part of my life, and i want to show the world that even though when you are at your lowest wits, there are benefits and opportunity that would come knocking on your door. I did. I met a BETTER man. Who accepts me the way i am, who cherished my inner beauty instead of physical appearence, who farts together with me.. hahahaha and etc... And yea, i have a whole set of future coming right at me. I am happy :)

So anyway, just like those names and names and names that i was talking about. Me too have several names being called. Rianah, Dayang, Mazrianah, Deekay and Baby. :) My sayang calls me Baby. Because i'm his baby :)

I LOVE YOU JAI!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEE xD

So stay tune..
Deekay

Nothing is what is seems

Sometimes in life, nothing is what it seems naturally. Things come and they go. Nothing stays permanent. The only thing that stays permanent are the scars made from past experience. :)

sometimes we just have to endure things on its own. A permanent person, that will always be there for you when you need them, could give you strength and the will to move on, instead of problems that they might create.

The Person that i am referring to is Jai. Before i met him, there were countless of measurements of undecent things that has occurred to me. From heart breaks, to liars, and etc... I've learned alot from jai. He taught me alot of things that in reality i my self was unaware of the existence of it. He taught me the art of appreciation, forgiveness and lay low in life. Because, dunia hanyala sementara, akhirat tu selama lamanya. My personality changed a bit, but a lil bit of 'that' attitude still core exist in me. I still find dancing quite enjoyable for me. :)

Owing goodness to some friends are still due. However, if there are no constant connection or communication how will it be done? If they keep on thinking that i am the one who should constantly see them, then what's the point of being friends with them if i keep on wasting oil money, and my time while they just sit quietly? So the best way is, i am happy with someone who could cooperate with me. :)

( KENAPA AKU JAK YG KENA SELALU PERGI SANA? )
Why not them? Before i got a car, i took the bus. The only time they went to my place is when they are sending me back. Hard la like this.

Anyway, experience makes you wiser. And the things that you thought would stay forever, well.. let's just say that, some do... :) and some... don't.

So till then,
Deekay :)