Gonna be working soon

My life is full of mysteries and complications. I guess that is what makes me strong to face reality when I'm working soon. Been to many many and countless interviews. My sister told me to go into any interview that i can find in order to build up the experiences i need. I guess she's right. Each and every interview i experienced has its own expectations. You just let your mouth be the miracle persuasive talker. In which i am not gonna deny that i am really good at it. And from the first interview till the current ones, they will all say the same thing, "Your English is so American, did you grow up there?" Ahh.. never missed out on that one. Well truth be told, My Original English sounded more like a classic Britain slang, till I was being suffocated with how many English talking Americans in Semenanjung is. Honestly, they all sounded like English melayu. pfffffttt.. Too bad, They may look up stream and wow, honestly, please, at least learn some grammar before you speak your so called American Slang. Who puts an 's' 'are' 'is' in each and every sentence? Well, put it in the wrong place of phrase that is.

Two and a half more weeks left till i completely graduated from my degree. Its kinda sad that this past two weeks is my final days of walking around the campus, classes... in which it stopped last week, assignments, reports, projects, presentations, tests, quizzes you name it, I will miss everything. A harsh world being a student. 16 years of being a student, minus the kindergarten part. Kinda feel amazed that we spent half our lives being a student. Gonna be hitting the jack pot soon huh. I mean working. God i feel old.

There are new students here in campus, well not exactly new, but returning diploma students. The 'Asasi' students are new. Fresh from high school. So, here we Degree students are going for our finals, and there they are just starting to have classes and small assignments, starting to complain of the workload and etc etc etc... Hellooooooo, have you tried being a degree student? A final year that is. Its always critical thinking in any assignments, quizzes and tests. Well, I've always wondered why UiTM workloads are much heavier then any institutions there is in Malaysia. Have you tried

Monday: 2 50% tests that falls under the same date as your submission project report. All different Subject.

Tuesday: 3 Quizzes all 20% and a report and presentation due on the same day. All different subjects.

Wednesday: Presentation practical system and research thesis to submit.

Thursday: Another Tests and a assignment report to submit.

Friday: No class, but still have upcoming assignments, reports, projects to submit the following week.

Its mental I tell ya. Assignments will start the third week of the starting semester. So, will you be able to tell how we survive through that hell load every week? If you have a great lecturer, yea maybe she or he will not try and destroy you though assignments and unnecessary quizzes and tests.

My final paper starts this Saturday on the 30th of July 2012. Really need some booze to lighten up the head. But happily I'm not drinking anymore. It feels good actually. :) You feel like every time you pray, those prayers are accepted by God. Wallahualam. amin~ :)

Can't wait for Olympics! Can't wait to see my favorite rhythmic gymnasts Evgenia Kanaeva from RUSSIA! She is awesome!!! And I kinda regret stopping rhythmic gymnast. Its kinda sad for me. :(

Anyhow,

Good night peepols!!!

A special Song

I'm really happy. Really happy to be born into this world, and happy to have met someone who love me the way i am. Be faithful to me and is proud to be with me. :) First time, in all my life, this one special song made jai's tears to roll on his face. Because that song was the first song he listens to when he first came to know me, until me were officially together. I too was also overwhelmed with joy and happiness. Tears rolled out from my eyes. The moment when you are hugging your most loved one with tears of joy, is the moment that captures my whole feelings and emotions. The feeling that you feel where you are very happy and comfortable with the person you are with. That was heaven on earth for me. :)

Singapore :) Pictha's :D

EXPRESS TICKET :)

Beetlejuice was actually playing with my hair before the camera snap us. And he wanted to put Eisyraff inside the dustbin. Hahaha

Roasted Beef Sandwhich.. :) Jai thought it was a burger.

Birthday cake flavor star dots Ice Cream!!! nyuummmm

Yes.. 'The' Globe..

The staff at the Candilious shop said that the candy hanging by the false tree is REAL and they are selling it for $150 Sing. I was like "Amazed". haha

Rode it with the sister. Laughing non stop. Yang biru best. Because kaki berjuntai. hihi :)
I can't put any other pictures. Because i'm not allowed to. 0___0 Because its private. So, these will do just fine. :) Singapore was also freakin' Hot!!! When i got back to Malaysia, i look like i got a tan. Terus pg buat facial and spa. hahaha..

Singapore is AWESOME!!

Universal Studio is waaaaaaaaaaaay awesome. Went on the transformers ride. I think is the best ride in universal as compared to the other ride. hihihi.. Will upload pictures sooooooon :). Went with the family though. The niece and nephews were also excited when we were going to Universal Studio. About 500 Meters from Universal Studio you could see far far away Castle. Although it is not that 100 percent like the ones in the states, but it still pretty darn good. :) It was a 5 days 4 night stay. Stayed at the Elizabeth hotel. Drove from KL to Singapore. Upload pictures soon!!!

Controversial

Today i'm gonna write a very controversial story about myself.

When i started wearing the tudung (Hijab), from then on i get alot of positive reactions towards me. Before wearing the tudung, dengan muka cina kopek aku lg, seriously, those Malay muslim people tend to have this typical stereotype about girls like me. And they tend to give you those negative impression and layanan yg agak teruk. Seriously, i have experience all these discrimination towards me. But when i started wearing the tudung, alhamdullillah, i get to see a better side of me that i myself were not aware of the qualities that i had. And so, i get better positive reaction, better layanan, especially when you go to any cafe, you'll discounts and sometimes cheaper things too.. :)

However, to change the way i am right now takes alot of strength, commitment and support. You want to know why? I was like the devil back then. I drink, i got wasted, i took weed (Biasa la time budak kan), some X, and some of that. I was a bad bitch last time compared to those present wanna be bitches that i see kononnya kaki clubbing, minum la apa la. Well, now its the opposite. Really, really opposite. When i was bad, i view some of those tudung people as those bitches that are so skema, boring, alim la kunun, because the way they stare a me was like, wooooaaahhh!! but now, i am that tudung people, and the way i view those bitches that kununnya hebat la go clubbing and all, is a mere wannabe. Poser. From that point on, i became scared of revealing my skin (Aurat), my cleavage Size 38E Boobs (;P) hahaha and my body. You want to know why? hukuman Allah S.W.T sangat menakutkan to those that reveal their body besides their husbands. Yeah i know, last time i was like, what the crap is this? But as i go on, with a lot of support from My one and only boyfriend, soon to be my husband, Jai :), He is the one that change everything from that! to where i am right now. Alhamdullillah, i manage to have the amount of Iman needed for me to change and to stay the way i am right now. :)

As Jai always remind me, Kalau kita kejar Duniawi, Allah S.W.T mmg bagi, minta apa satu pun mmg dapat, Tapi syurga akan dijauhkan. And i read some islamic article, dosa yang lebih berat daripada berzina, adalah, meninggalkan solat secara sengaja.

I find being slowly adapting to the teachings of islam is wonderful. Teaches you on how to be a better person. I think it was in the quran, Iread it when i was in Mekah, it said, "avoid people that brings harm to yourself, and be close to people that does not bring harm to you". Brings harm means, not only physicall and mentally harm, but dari sudut, " Orang yang boleh membawa dosa pada diri sendiri". So, i guess from reading the Quran in mekah, it really opened up my eyes more. It made me think, what have i done with my life until now. So i avoid those people. I don't know, it was automatic. I feel like i needed to breath and to manage myself.

I also read the punishment to woman that does not take care of their aurat. Scary shit i tell you. Rambut di paku dan dibakar sampai otak mendidih, Anggota badan di bakar sbb tidak menutup aurat, disula and etc... that is some scary shit ok. :P

What i hope to be in the future, is to be a succesfull woman in life and also di hari akhirat,and to be a good muslim :)

PASHMINA FEVER

I will, and will always be in love with pashmina and those stripe shawl. Eventhough sekarang ni musim tudung bawal, in a way, aku tak reti nak pakai tudung bawal. Sorry, tak kene dgn muke i :D haha. Anyway, i got a place in a hostel. At least jimat sgt duit minyak kereta pa smua kan ;D. Currently staying at Rafflesia 6. Classes from Monday till Thursday only. So lepas habis je class kul 4 i'll be going back to damansara.

This semester is my most final and last semester as a degree student. *Sigh* Cepat sgt masa berlalu. I'm planning to pursue my masters in MBA either in the states or in UK. But before pursuing, i'm gonna work first. Pegang dulu duit, then i'll pursue later on. They say once you work and got a hold of your own money you will not think of pursuing your studies anymore. Well i'm here to prove them wrong. :)

I've change handphones. I'm now using the iphone 4, white color. Lepas ni kalau dah bosan dgn iphone 4, who knows what handphone i'll use next. >:P

Haih.. research, research,research. Dikejar ke semester ni dari last sem. Kerja kerja kerja... :P Oh practical was awesome!!!! And i did a system using access. Senang jak. :P Just a simple database system would do alright. :)

Jai is working part time at TM. Biasa la, kalau dah abes sem, mesti cari kerja part time kan. To fill in those unused activities. Even i would find a part time work when it is the semester break. :P

Anyway, sem ni la jgk last aku merasa Paper final, last aku rasa stress dgn assignments, quiz dan test. Sungguh Sedih bila dikenangkan perkara itu balik. Anyway, that's life. Life must go on.

Forget the past, and live on to the future. :)

TANGGUNGJAWAB

Bagaimanakah hendak 'delete' Blog yang sudah bekurun lamanya tidak dipakai, yang mengandungi unsur-unsur anasi yg tidak bermanfaat pada diri, di mana email yang digunakan untuk membuat blog itu bukanlah milik saya, malah email yang digunakan itulah boleh meng-delete kan Blog itu.

Benda ini terjadi apabila Jai ku menaip nama saya di 'google search box'. Dia hairan, jadi dia klik link yang menpunyai nama saya. Dia terkejut apabila melihat BLOG Lama saya yang masih wujud di laman web sesawang ini. Dia menelefon saya dan bertanya bagaimanakah ianya boleh terjadi. Saya juga amat terperanjat dengan informasi yang dia berikan kepada saya. Saya memberitahu dia bahawa blog itu bukan milik saya kerana 'email' yang digunakan untuk membuat blog itu milik orang lain. Jadi untuk meng-deletekan blog itu memang sah berada di luar kuasa saya.

Saya jgk mencuba untuk 'report' blog itu, kerana blog yang tidak bermanfaat itu haruslah di delete. Apabila blog itu berada di bawah milik email orang lain, maka milik email orang itu la yang bertanggungjawab untuk meng-delete kan email itu, kerana blog itu boleh dikira sebagai 'defaming other people' yang sudah tidak kena mengena dengan blog itu.

Saya dan pasangan saya Jai berharap agar blog ini dapat di 'delete' oleh penguat kuasa blogger.com.

Sekian.

Punya skema bha bahasa.. hahahaha :P

Elakkan NAFSU syaitan

Pesanan Ustaz Azhar Idrus Kepada Lelaki :

Jangan pikat wanita kalau anda tak bersedia cintakan dia.
Jangan buat wanita tu jatuh cinta kalau anda tak cintakan dia.
Jangan memberi wanita harapan kalau anda tidak pasti.
Jangan sakitkan hati wanita kalau anda tiada hati untuknya.
Jangan mainkan perasaan wanita kalau anda tiada perasaan untuknya.
H.A.R.A.M jika jadikan wanita itu kekasih tetapi tiada niat untuk nikahinya.

Practical... internship.. Industrial training.

This March it will be my last four and a half month as a Bachelor degree student. How sad. After that i will be a carier woman. Insyallah kalau ada rezeki, i will work overseas. Wanna get that strong experience before working permanently in Malaysia.



Is it nice? I think i will add a chiffon hood with the baju. Because i will be wearing my tudung ala arab style, so i think the hood would complement the style. And prolly would put some blue beadings with it. Although i wanted it with something turqoise or blue, but, i still have heaps of time to modify it later. Is figuring out my hecting schedule... erghhhhh...



This is the style that i had in mind. The Blue texture in the middle, but no hoody la. If got hoody seriously nice. I would be wearing something like a 'anak tudung' in the inside, and a thin soft blue 'selendang' arab style. I use soft chiffon so that it won't look heavy on the head. :)

Jai is back with the iphone4. Iya, dia tukar lagi phone. Kadang2 sa pun buli mengamuk dia tukar2 phone. hahaha.. He said he cepat boring and this iphone4 white that he is currently using now, ini la last dia bilang. :P We'll see if its the last. He installed siri on his iphone 4. Bukan iphone 4s tau, iphone 4. Well, it is working perfectly, tapi tula, siri is useless in Malaysia. Setakat suruh siri go to phonebook cari number orang boleh la. But if you ask for destinations, memang cannot la. Because siri is only designed to work specifically in the UK and in the US.

Will be going to Singapore-Jakarta this year. Hopefully before Raya. Wanna go to Universal Studio Singapore for probably three days or a week, then we'll take the flight from singapore to Jakarta. Will be driving to Singapore with family. And yes gonna use my car to go there. Tiga kereta kali, Kereta abg oji, mine and abg hafiz. urghhh... Wanna go to Bugis street in Singapore!!! hehehe.

What is going to happen this year 2012 :)

Insyaallah.. Akan ku bertunang dgn Muhammad Ruzaini Bin M.Haron. Kekasih ku, Sayang ku.. and my bebeh! hhaha.. Anyway, I'm still in the midst of planning. Tapi harap2 insyallah kalau Allah S.W.T Bagi kami rezeki, This year is my lucky year :)

Anyway, here are the sample of the pelamin for my up coming tunang.






























Haih... decisions, decisions. The sample pelamin that i took is all according to what i want. Simple but sophisticated. I'm not really into that hardcore pelamin stuff. Although the Pink and Black, (First Picture) is quite hardcore, but i really like the style. Maybe IF i choose that i'll modify abit of the pelamin.

My baju would be Off-White but a little bit of soft turqoise beadings with detailed Gold thread. Later i'll post about the Baju, because it is still in consideration. :P

Insyallah, kalau ada rezeki, it will be this July 2012 :) AMIN~

FINAL

Final, dlm beberapa minggu lagi. Sigh~

And so far i have 0 encounters on drama this semester. Bagus la. i really dislike Drama. Yuck~. For gedik gedik girls tu boleh la, but not for me. Its because that i am always in my own little island. :) Tidak ambil port pasal hal org lain.

Miss Jai. :(

Sumpah banyak betul org2 yg aku kenal time sekolah menengah dah khawin. Gila apa. Bila la turn aku nih. Its best to just wait kan. Focus on my career first. Kena ada duit baru boleh khawin. Cinta setia sejati is only enough dari segi hati, emosi, and etc... Tp kalau khawin nak bayar segala benda alat takkan nk guna cinta sejati kowt? Hahaha.. see!! Money is IMPORTANT kalau mau khawin. No Money, no hantaran. Which is the part that i look forward to. Hahaha..

I got a feeling that i will be married in the next two or three years. ;D... Jai keeps on talking about marriage, kids and stuff. hehehe.. which puts a BIG smile on my face. And i keep on asking him bila nk khawin. hahhaha xD Insyallah kalau Allah bg rezeki akan ku khawin dgn dia :) AMIN~