Especially for you

I made it with proper care and love.
Knowing that we'd be in great distance,
So i made this for you sayang.
I hope you'd like it.. :)


Kuih raya for my sayang. All wrapped and sealed. :)


I know its not much, but still,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri sayang,
Ampun maaf dari hujung rambut sampai la ke kaki,
Walaupun kita berjauhan,
awak sentiasa di hatiku..
Love you sayang.. :)

ya i know jiwang!! hahaha first time nie.. hihi..
just give it a go.. hehehe

US :)

karaoke sama c jai

Lucu nie when i tinguk the vid balik.. hahaha When it was my syg punya turn.. the intro bukan main lagi hebat, suddenly masuk verse... silent jap......and kaku.. hahaha.. then baru he bersuara.. " ok lyric xde"... then continue on kaku and senyap.. then he say "mana lyric?" haha.. funny oooeee... BUT I STILL LOVE HIM!! He is soooo adorable.. hehe njoy.. xD

What i did before EID :)

Hey there! its been awhile since i wrote anything on my blog. *sigh*. I just came back home 3 days ago. I took the last flight back home on sunday night, MAS. It was tiring okayh.. huhu..

Anyway, the next day, me and my mom went to patches in karamunsing to go get my baju raya. I just love the way she tailored my baju-baju. I got 2 turqoise coloured baju kurung and a soft pinkish cream with a bit of soft peach colour. Macam mana laitu? haha.. anyway, the first day of raya i'm gonna use the turqoise coloured baju. I think so, kene tgk dulu what my laki pakai. hehe..

And so the next day, i did few things, baking cookies.. ala 2 jenis jak.. haha.. i just wanna put some of the pictures that i took when i was making it.. hehehe xD






This is the dough.. full of cream and fat.. hehe.. i put extra chocolate chips in it.. hehehe

After making it, i went to the dining room and set the trays with the rice paper on as the base so that the surface won't burn my cookies. Dalam erti kata lain, supaya bontot biskut ku tidak hangus.. hahaha




AFter the whole thing, this is what happen when the cookies are all baked.. hehe



TADAA

HEHEHE.. oe and yea i almost forgot.. i did grill chicken for sahur.. hehe




I just LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOVVEEE to cook and bake.. passion!!

I feel so flabbergasted when i'm cooking or baking. Because its what i love most. Then again, make it a double team, because my hubby loves to cook too! so... woohoo!!! hahahaha xD love you jai!

Anyway, i think that's about it. hihi.. Later i'ma show all of you what kelupis is, for those who don't know la what kelupis is.. hihi

Till then;
Stay tune
Deekay

Another piece full of my mind

The word Agitated has lots of meaning to it. Play the piano in a agitated way, or you're making me feel agitated, or agitate the violin string so that the sound is more sharp or etc...

Once again, assignments, presentation, tests quizzes and doing notes are all above my head. This week has been hellish for me. My phone is my utmost priority. And i left my phone, lost it in these week. Next week will be another hellish week for me. God i can't wait for raya to come!! xD

I miss him badly. He's the one that i always go to when i need comfort, someone to count on to be cared for. :) Love you my mr. buchuk.. hehehe xD

Butchy has been locked up in my room since the moment we arrived to puncak alam. Butchy which was given by my jai, is the most precious teddy bear i have. And the first one too. hahaha.. kasian kan dulu tdk pernah nie org bg teddy bear. hahahaha xD!!!

Third Semester is not that hard, although there are conflicts happening between me and "some" of the other classmates, i don't seem to care. Because, i am independent and i know what i should do. I'm not the type yang suka merungut bila ada kerja yang banyak or when the task given is hard. I will search for the solution myself and understand it myself. That is what i learnt when i was a pre-degree law student in uitm merbok kedah. Although tempat tu mcm taik, with the extra strict guard, but i owe it to that place. :)

Group F student seem to remind me about the type of people i used to work my assignments or presentation groups with in uitm kedah. Opinionated, energetic, lots of charisma, cunning, group work, smart and more. Gosh i miss those days... huhuhuhu :'(...

Miss my bitches too yoooo!! hahaha... you know who you are babes xD remembering those memories we had last time.. it was hectic, it was the craziest night in sunway.. where we dance on the bar table and the bartender made a straight line of fire on the bar table behind us, and we dance through the night.. that is one hell of a crazy night, with the 2 flaming i threw in and the tequila shots we made, not to mension the countless of bottles hahahaha... itu zaman duluu.. :)

Semenjak umrah things changed :) at least i became a better person then before. Wearing tudung, and indulging my self to religion. :) Although i'm still at the beginners stage of these tudung stuff and changing stuff, but my jai and friends will always be there to support me :)..

I hope this sem i'll gain another beautiful results :). I'm gonna pursue my masters in singapore or in UK, as a part time student. Because i still want the work experience. If god willing i would also like to pursue my PHD.. insyallah.. :)

Can't wait for raya.. hehehe can't wait to go back to kk.. yay!!! hehehehe

I MISS YOU SO MUCH JAI!!!! HEHE

your's truly:
deekay

The day the bride got sick

It was Thursday morning, just woke up, her fever has not even decrease its temperature. aTE THE "iBUSPAN" that the doc gave her. It did not do any good. Fever keep on coming after every four hours the pill was taken. She was vibrating even though the fan have been swithced off. The room was hot but she feels it was cold.
She took an oath, because that day is where she was suppose to see her husband, in which both of them have promised to meet. But alas, the bride got sick. What did she do? She took the pill and her fever has gone. So she took all the bravery, and took the afternoon bus. From there, she waited patiently for the bus to reach shah alam where she would take the KTM to Kl central.

The bus reached shah alam, and she called her friend to send her to " padang jawa ". The motorbike she rode was amusing. She reached KTM with a headache in her head. But she's still eager to go. And so, she went into the ktm and head to Kl central. In KL central, she straight away went to the lrt station and bought the wangsamaju ticket. She's just not seem to be patient to see her beloved husband.

Arrived at wangsamaju, and her dearly beloved husband is waiting for her. And so she rode on the motorbike with him. It was, the ecstatic moment, reaching to her loved ones with arms wide open. :) it was the only cure that she needed to eliminate the fever that was burning hot deep down inside her.

Even though that day the bride got sick, she still has the spirit to go into the arms of her husband even though she is staying far away from him. :)

tough love ;)

stay tune :)
deekay

When i tend to talk....

Sometimes things are discreet, that is when you're all curious about it.
When things got too discreet, you tend to find it out. Know why and what it is.
But sometimes, things that are discreet aren't always good. Some are bad. When i say bad i mean BADASS. Like for instance, knowing your partner is sleeping with another person. That's fucked up shit aight! Or knowing the person you trust before is backstabbing you or making shitty faces behind you.. that's fucked up!

The good news is....it is when you knew what your partner is gonna give ya ;).. hehe. Or knowing that this end of the month you'll be going on a vacay with your loved ones, or knowing that you're gonna have a surprise at your doorstep.. :)

So things... they are good and there are bad. If you have only good, then you may get bored of it. If you received only bad, then you'd go for suicide. So there must be balances between both of it. Creating equilibrium is important. Because life is about getting balances out of it.

Instances, that's the cause of adrenaline rush pumping from your veins. No i'm not talking about instant soup or whatever, i'm talking about instant "spontaneous". It keeps your adrenaline pump going. That is when the fun starts. You start of with a thought that things are going to be simple and normal, Out of a sudden, things happen in which you aren't prepared for. Then you tend to have this emotional feeling of afraid, nervous, tempted, anxious.. when things get hot, you tend to feel the excitement of it. You feel your heart rate increase, then you tend to do stuff that you normally won't do, because your brain may say its wrong, but your nature says it all.. and that's when you get to see the true colors of people. Aren't they beautiful.. :)

I talk alot of crap. And when i talk crap, shit happens. For instance, people tend to get annoyed by me. But who the hell cares.. xD

Some times stalking is good. You get to see what your partner or friend is doing in their everyday life. And you gain valuable information. Which is the positive side. Sometimes, stalking too gives you surprises. Example, finding a picture of your partner on the web with another person on the bed. That is fucked up! right? hahaha

Sometimes having best friends at a young age is crucial. Because its a trend. From Then and Now. But, you tend to feel annoyed when things don't turn out good. And so you avoid them. Avoid other people who wants to be close to you. Afraid that history is going to repeat itself all over again. Of course we gain some valuable experience from it, so, we've matured. And so we know who is faithful in friendship, and who is full of fucked up shit. :) Even meeting new people, you tend to know who they are from the moment you get close to them. Close call for experience and knowledge. Experience leads to knowledge, and so we apply them in our daily usage. :)

I think i've talk alot of crap, haha..
Till then;
Deekay...

dulu and sekarang

Dulu hyper active, tidak reti duduk diam
Sekarang, sedar diri, reti sudah mau duduk diam.

Dulu tomboi, mau sangat kekuatan cam lelaki,
Sekarang, nilai perempuan tu sangat la dinilai.

Dulu malas, kuat main jak,
Sekarang, malas tu kurang sudah, main pun kurang, focus lebih :).

Dulu, senyap sikit,
Sekarang, kena cakap celupar, bibiran, bnyk cakap. >:P

Dulu, banyak tukar2 "kawan lelaki",
Sekarang, setia pada yang satu, :)

Dulu, Boypren semua PALUI,
Sekarang.. alhamdullillah XD.

Dulu, slim,
Sekarang, chubby >:P

Dulu, tidak bertudung,
Sekarang, berutdung sudaaaa :)

Dulu, jahat, mabik la, cucuk langit la,
Sekarang, alhamdullillah sudah tidak :).

Dulu, kawan2 semua backstabber,
Sekarang, insyallah tidak akan.. :)

Dulu, kuat makan,
Sekarang, masih lagi kuat makan.. hahaha

Dulu, bersukan rajin,
Sekarang, bersukan pun masih lagi rajin.

Dulu, outspoken berterabur,
Sekarang, "organized".. hehe ;)

Dulu, rambut dark brown jak,
Sekarang, macam2 warna sudah.. :P

Dulu, loneranger
Sekarang, ada c jai bha sdh :D hehe

Dulu, kasar, ganas,
Sekarang, tidak suda cam tu.. hehe :D

Dulu, rajin begayut di fon rumah. Akibatnya kena tiau sm daddy sya. (bil mahal gink!)
Sekarang, sdh ada hp, tau2 sdh jimat crdt cam mn.. hehe :D

Dulu, boros,
Sekarang, I know what stuff is more important then those things that we already have.

Dulu, not resentful,
Sekarang, quite resentful.. ( ITS YOUR FAULT!!! )

Dulu, drive krita cam haram..
Sekarang, sudah experience macam2.. hati2 sdh :)

Dulu, semua boypren2 dulu curang-curang blkg sya,
Sekarang, alhamdullillah setia pd yg satu.. :) (Husband material) hehe ;)

Dulu, cita2 model, athlete, artist.
Sekarang, OWNER and DIRECTOR of "a" or "my" company, business woman, managing any institute of education and so on. ( BIG KAN )

Dulu, education mau sampai degree jak.
Sekarang, PHD.. see you all in 7 years time :)

Dulu, was known as little miss dayang.. :)
NOW, I am known as DAYANGKU MAZRIANAH a.k.a DEEKAY xD

DULU, asyik2 merenung, thinking what life is and thinking when am i going to find "HIM".
NOW, I found MUHAMMAD RUZAINI B HARON a.k.a JAI :)

itu jak la.. hehehe
stay tune:
Deekay

something new

Its new, but its not raw. Its magnificent, but it ain't all that. All i can say is, i am gradually turning into a better person.

Its the end of my second semester, and this 4th of July, I'll be in my second year as a bachelor student. :)

I've gain two beautiful CGPA'S. And i am trying my best to continue my hard work and performance for my second year and my third semester. Of course, all thanks to Jai and my parents, for their endless support. :) I love you all.

Its true money ain't all that. Money won't buy you happiness that you want. Money won't buy you "pahala" and money creates distortion amongst people, the economy, the welfare of the country and also creates problems in some families. If you 're a muslim and you're having all this, Bukan ka diriwayatkan bahawa setiap manusia ada lah sama. Baik kaya atau miskin, kacak atau buruk, tinggi atau pendek, pandai atau bodoh, Kamu tetap akan dikembalikan kepadanya. Setiap manusia mempunyai rezeki yang berbeza yang dikehendaki oleh nya. So why bother the problems on your self while other people have much deeper problems than yours? I'm just saying that, problems are just a minor "cabaran" for human's from god. If you can solve it with your "iman" then insya allah kamu akan ditempatkan ke syurga, :)

I'm actually surprised at myself. I've changed, alot lately. Before this talking about religion or god makes me wonder more.. bak kata orang, jgn keruh kan air yang sudah tenang.. :) Patient is what consumes everything in what i do. And found many beneficial opportunities that surrounds me. :) Thank you Allah S.W.T for showing me the path of light. :) Its true what they said. "Bila niat seseorang utk mengerjakan umrah itu murni dan ikhlas, maka ianya akan berubah menjadi seorang mukmin yang solehah yang diredhai oleh Allah S.W.T".. insyaallah~ :). Although its a new start for me, but hey, My learning progress is quick and i found myself with bravery and wisdom that i must share with others. :)

Let the past be the past. For it no longer stays within me. All is forgiven and forgotten, :) However, I'm still not talking to all of you if you your self won't change, and i don't see why you deserve my attention and acknowledgment. The only thing that i can say is to send my deepest condolence to your remaining goodness.

Change because you want the best not just from the world you live in, tapi pada hari akhirat juga. :) Jai made me realize about faith and God. A true man of his word. And a man for my love. ;)



Stay tune;
Deekay :)

Feeling good!

Hey! its been awhile. OMG i felt like forever since i wrote anything in my blog..so anyhow, i went for my umrah last month. Before my umrah went to egypt for a little vacay ;) hehehe. Egypt is okay i think. Not that WOW with their facilities or people or things or stuff. But one thing about them is that, Egyptians are super 'PENIPU' and also they are sooooooo impatient! but so far, it is the most historical place in the world, because they have Pharaohs or in malay Firaun. I've had 2 and a half weeks of arabian food. So if my friends were to take me to an arabian reestaurant, maybe next time, in another 2 or 3 month or so?? xD naaaaah just kidding, but yea, not gonna eat any western food for about a week or so. :) here's some pictures.. xD... ok sgt cool.. i bru jak td tgk the premier of avatar the last air bender.. its sooo coooll!!! i mau tinguk!! its on july 2nd.. syg!!! come we go watch!!! hehehe.. :P






So yea, there it goes. Alexandria is such a beautiful city. Went to the beach, and it was beautiful. Lain dari yang lain. :) That night, we went on a cruise on a ship, around the nil river. It was fun. There were some entertainment. Belly dancing and all that. Gosh she was sexy! hahaha.. But overall.. it was worth while, :D. After all that, on the fifth day, we went to the airport getting ready to go to jeddah. So from there, we took the bus and went to madinah first for a 4 days stay. So, kena la bertudung. :P hihi..






Nampak ka the huge umbrella above us? one umbrella costs around 1 mil.. and those huge umbrella's are everywhere at the masjid nabawi.. (masjid rasullah) di sn la makam dia.. when we're going to raudah, it was very emotional bcz you are standing infront of his makam and on heaven on earth.. raudah tu is tempat rumah rasulullah.. :). And so after that, we went onto a 8 hour trip to mekkah.. of course la tiring.. huhuhu :P

So sampai jak mekkah, we pursue our umrah at night. And by all means, kaabah never look even more beautiful at night. And that time was the first time i saw kaabah, depan mata. selama nie solat pun just menghadap jak, but this time, kaabah is right infront of you. I feel closer to Allah S.W.T.. :)

We went everywhere including to jamratul ramah and etc... i can't remember the names.. hahaha.. nvr mind. here are some pictures in mekkah.. :)







tadaaaaaaaa...I did my umrah four times. it was fun actually and easy... sgt senang. :).. hehe.. sooo everytime solat, we went to the mosque. Jemaah sekali in the mosque you'll get 100,000 pahala.. bayangkan itu duit masuk ke syurga. Not just any mosque, it must be masjidil haram. :)

And so, we spent around 2 weeks in mekkah, 4 days in madinah and 4 days in egypt. So its almost a month i'm gone. huhuhu.. kesian my syg rindu-rindu meee.. i pun rindu diaaa.. xD.. :)

Its been 5 month and 2 weeks with jai. And everything's good. :) hehehe..





i lub him.. ;).. hehe...
I will start rajin blogging right now.. hehe kesian tul my blog. xD




So till then..
deekay.. :)

life and after life

Friends come and they go, lovers too come and go, children they don't come and go, faith too don't come and go, money come and go, things come and go but god, he ain't going nowhere.

People come when tehy see thatnyou are useful to them. But once you run out of "stock", they'll leave you straight away.

Nowadays, people seem to be attracted to material, these people are called materealistic. Well, i'm a meterealistic myself but i don't go around leaving people.

feelings, oh they ain't going nowhere because it is glued to our hearts. So therefore, we tend to have all this emotions going on in our lives.

sometimes people don't seem to realize that living in a world is only a figment of an imagination of what we want. Although its real, with all those emotional problems, family and so on.. but when we die, we ain't bringing it on to the after life.. that is a whole new story.

Yes me myself has sinned when i was a young chick. Having a life that was full of fun and enjoyment. But hey, whether its fun or not, di akhirat jgk tu yg paling penting. Dunia is only temporary, tp akhirat tu permanant. So choose.. i choose akhirat.. so that's why i'm leaving all those "haram" things behind me. Because... aku sudah PUAS.. but sometimes it is hard to leave those things, because its a part of our life, temption is my only enemy. But so far, with the help of god, family and my jai.. everything is in order. And there's nothing that i can't handle.. :)

jai oe jai.. i miss you so much.

Ayte.. its time to bath the little ones.. hehehe

till then;
Deekay :)