I KNOW WHO'S THE CULPRIT

Same class. trying to kasi "kena" me. Tidak apa satu tanah juga. i am not going to stop nor giving up. Because i know who i am. May GOD give you your judgement.

car incident

it was Yesterday when it all happen. was going to class at usual around 1 p.m in the afternoon. my class starts at 2. so anyway, i got network test that time, i finished early so i went to my car and caught this kancil was so near to it!! tgk2 betul jgk dia p lggr!! left a note on her car.. so she called me, well .. ok i was not suppose to say ayat2 kasar.. and i said sorry n plus dia tidak mengaku that it was her fault. i sent an mms of the incident, baru la she want to slowly adapt to her fault. haih.. later i update pictures of it ... bodoh!!!

Ruzaini, Along, Jai, i think kojai pun ada.. and sayang

Many names been called but only one reference that i would put on him. And that is Sayang. Just like any other relationships, some would prefer to be called mama, or papa, or Ling, or wa and etc... But i stick with only one, 'sayang', because it means alot to me. Sayang is describe as your feelings towards another person. But how come i don's use other names to called my loved ones? It is because, when i use the word 'sayang', i feel the intense feeling of 'love' when i call him. I feel the connection between me and him and that is what matters. That is why i call him sayang. Of course other certain people that i hear calling their loved ones 'sayang' is kinda yucky, but when you yourself experience it, you yourself would realize the feeling that grows in it. But not to the extent where when you said it, your other half would make yucky faces towards you.

Anyway, my finals are coming. Another 4 more weeks. Damn.. :P Ita been raining ever since. Everytime i wash the car, it always rains tomorrow, or at night. So therefore, i'll wash the car when it gets really dirty. I always wash the car on weekends but seemingly that it always rains on weekends. Then i have to delay it till.... wash it when the time is right. Really need to have a cleaning on it. *sigh*...

Its been a year and 5 month since that incident happen. Why am i writing this, its because it is part of my life, and i want to show the world that even though when you are at your lowest wits, there are benefits and opportunity that would come knocking on your door. I did. I met a BETTER man. Who accepts me the way i am, who cherished my inner beauty instead of physical appearence, who farts together with me.. hahahaha and etc... And yea, i have a whole set of future coming right at me. I am happy :)

So anyway, just like those names and names and names that i was talking about. Me too have several names being called. Rianah, Dayang, Mazrianah, Deekay and Baby. :) My sayang calls me Baby. Because i'm his baby :)

I LOVE YOU JAI!!!! HEEEEEEEEEEEE xD

So stay tune..
Deekay

Nothing is what is seems

Sometimes in life, nothing is what it seems naturally. Things come and they go. Nothing stays permanent. The only thing that stays permanent are the scars made from past experience. :)

sometimes we just have to endure things on its own. A permanent person, that will always be there for you when you need them, could give you strength and the will to move on, instead of problems that they might create.

The Person that i am referring to is Jai. Before i met him, there were countless of measurements of undecent things that has occurred to me. From heart breaks, to liars, and etc... I've learned alot from jai. He taught me alot of things that in reality i my self was unaware of the existence of it. He taught me the art of appreciation, forgiveness and lay low in life. Because, dunia hanyala sementara, akhirat tu selama lamanya. My personality changed a bit, but a lil bit of 'that' attitude still core exist in me. I still find dancing quite enjoyable for me. :)

Owing goodness to some friends are still due. However, if there are no constant connection or communication how will it be done? If they keep on thinking that i am the one who should constantly see them, then what's the point of being friends with them if i keep on wasting oil money, and my time while they just sit quietly? So the best way is, i am happy with someone who could cooperate with me. :)

( KENAPA AKU JAK YG KENA SELALU PERGI SANA? )
Why not them? Before i got a car, i took the bus. The only time they went to my place is when they are sending me back. Hard la like this.

Anyway, experience makes you wiser. And the things that you thought would stay forever, well.. let's just say that, some do... :) and some... don't.

So till then,
Deekay :)