one more year

ONE MORE YEAR then i'll be a fresh gradute with a degree. Well my journey will not end there yet. I am pursuing my masters in MBA prolly in Singapore or in UK. After that i'll pursue another degree in LAW. :)

Jai would be offshore-ing when i am pursuing my Masters. Have to tangguh ada anak first. Hehehe. Cause i need him when i am having a child. :)

Degree is EASY!! luckily i am blessed with natural outspoken behavior. If in the next 10 minits you're gonna have a presentation in class, i can wrap it all up for ya. what ever idea comes out from my mind, i'll just say it with lots of "bunga". because that is what presentation is all about. They just want explanation. :)

Birthday coming next month. I wonder what is he planning for me. :) LOVE HIM!!

stay tuned
deekay

ABOUT OFFICE MANAGEMENT

FIRSTLY, it won't get you anywhere.

SECOND, kerja kerani and secretary. Kepala OTAK siapa ckp jd manager trus?!

THIRD, Cuba check kat requirements kerja or intern kat mana2. Ada tak dia tulis SPECIFICALLY OFFICE MANAGEMENT. Tiada kan. Office management and MANAGEMENT course adala BERBEZA!

FOURTH, kerja 10 tahun insentif ngan promotion naik sikit jak. Pastu,tak puas hati ngan income, MENJADILAH LECTURER kepada OM.

FIFTH, org2 yg kata blaja om nie graduate je jadi manager. Pakiu. Drg saje ckp cam tu so that kite x tahu yg kite nie graduate je degree, akan kerja kerani kerajaan yg dah bnyk pencen. Itu la sebab mereka kata bnyk ORGANIZATION nak budak2 OM.. sbb kalau kita apply kerja pun, siapa mau ambil kita?

SIXTH, pernah dgr dr dulu smpy skrg budak om yg successful? Budak Masscom bnyk laaa yg successful and famous.

SEVEN, Dan itu lah kenapa bnyk dak STPM, Dak dari asasi yg x lepas kena bagi course OM. Pointer nak masuk degree OM at least 2.00.. nak g master.. at least 2.75.. Nak dpt dekan pun senang. Berlambak budak2 dpt dekan. DAH X SPECIAL

EIGHT. Paling tinggi pun jadi executive.. apa laa tuuuu

NINE. Cube lihat kat advertisement utk student kat notice board. Asyik2 secretary jaaaakk..

TEN. Nama dulu OM bernama "secretarial" course. SO why the hell changing the name to OM would not make it a secretarial course? ps..Secretary pun blaja HR.. tolong cket eyhhh...

Jadi.. nmpknya.. aku telah menyedari bahawa saya telah silap pilih course. Budak2 yg x sedar, whatever laa.. janji kerja ngan kerajaan di jamin kan.

But for me... NO! i set my views really high. But in the end, i notice ALOT of companies rejected me just because they think that my qualification is not required by the company. And when that happen, i notice that, the course i'm taking is just a waste of my TIME AND EFFORT. If they want a secretary, anybody can be a secretary, skrg nie kita bnyk nmpk budak2 lepasan SPM kerja secretary. Secretary kat PETRONAS tu lepasan dip jak, atau pun budak2 masscom. SO... where are we actually. Oe yea, kita di government sector. In which kerja cam tu la sampai tua.

I saw my EFFORT GONE TO WASTE. However, my dad was the one who wanted me to take this. Mmg senang kalau mau kerja di lembaga hasil or anywhere. BUT I AM NOT INTERESTED IN THAT SHIT!

DAMN should have taken culinary arts or business or anything that i is beneficial for ma and for my future.

Sudah second year, might as well just finish this whole thing up. Another year to go. Or should i quit this and take up law back? Start from scratch. At least i'll be somebody... :P

S.A.D Its hard to be me.

I'm in my room, on my bed. I cried just now. Everything that i have kept inside me burst out of nowhere. I am secretive, very secretive... not all know my secret, not all now who i am, not all even know how i feel. But one thing that is not "secret" about me is my egoistic appearence.

I'm a loneranger since that accident i had when i was small. I've been feeling alone ever since. That is why i've been with countless of relationship and non of them worked or could even get rid of the loneliness i feel. Yea~ i'm one hell of a depressed women. No shit.. Well i just pray to god that my current relationship now will bring me happiness, instead of another 'stab in the heart'.

Having best friend doesn't suit me. Being friends with girls is an 'okay' for me, but when it gets toooo close, its a no-no for me. Because things won't work the way it plan. I'm not good at having a relationship with girls.. being long-term friends i mean. I find all girls are soooo "gedik".

Well it won't surprise you that i have lots of boy-friends. Because only them would i be comfortable at being myself. weird~

Everyday is the same day. Going to class is like going to a battlefield to my feelings. The students, lecturers, classmates and the others... i don't care about them, all i care is my future. But still, i really hate launch time!. Why won't all my classes end at 12p.m??!!

Parents are getting on my nerve. Obviously you do know how kids nowadays are sooooo dependent on their parents? well, my parents wants me to be independent, in which they did a really good job. Then, when i did a little mistake, sana la tiba2 suruh jgn kerja la wat la. Then fine, if you don't want me to work, then give me money to survive, in which you guys kedekut sgt mau bg. ya i know budget, Guess that you never felt what i feel here. I don't want to go back to kk. Bcz i do not want to sit around the house doing nothing. The pay here in kl for part timers are high, especially in where i work at. So i feel very comfortable staying here. When i graduate and have a stable permanent job, i'll take that car loan out from your hands and handle it. That's the only thing that they are doing for me. For my 'kesenangan' here.

Ada someone in your life pun, sometimes the loneliness rasa jgk. Jadi, mcm mn la nie? Of course i don't want to leave him. I love him for god sake! But still...hmmm... i really think that i need to take some time alone. Reduce the pressure in my life. If my family reads this, mesti they say like this.. "why should you feel pressured? you are not working." Ya obviously i'm not working. And obviously you all do not know that i am being pressured by all of you. Really need to throw this feelings that is being kept in me for quite some time. Soon it will hit me.

Anyway...
chow!