Another piece full of my mind

The word Agitated has lots of meaning to it. Play the piano in a agitated way, or you're making me feel agitated, or agitate the violin string so that the sound is more sharp or etc...

Once again, assignments, presentation, tests quizzes and doing notes are all above my head. This week has been hellish for me. My phone is my utmost priority. And i left my phone, lost it in these week. Next week will be another hellish week for me. God i can't wait for raya to come!! xD

I miss him badly. He's the one that i always go to when i need comfort, someone to count on to be cared for. :) Love you my mr. buchuk.. hehehe xD

Butchy has been locked up in my room since the moment we arrived to puncak alam. Butchy which was given by my jai, is the most precious teddy bear i have. And the first one too. hahaha.. kasian kan dulu tdk pernah nie org bg teddy bear. hahahaha xD!!!

Third Semester is not that hard, although there are conflicts happening between me and "some" of the other classmates, i don't seem to care. Because, i am independent and i know what i should do. I'm not the type yang suka merungut bila ada kerja yang banyak or when the task given is hard. I will search for the solution myself and understand it myself. That is what i learnt when i was a pre-degree law student in uitm merbok kedah. Although tempat tu mcm taik, with the extra strict guard, but i owe it to that place. :)

Group F student seem to remind me about the type of people i used to work my assignments or presentation groups with in uitm kedah. Opinionated, energetic, lots of charisma, cunning, group work, smart and more. Gosh i miss those days... huhuhuhu :'(...

Miss my bitches too yoooo!! hahaha... you know who you are babes xD remembering those memories we had last time.. it was hectic, it was the craziest night in sunway.. where we dance on the bar table and the bartender made a straight line of fire on the bar table behind us, and we dance through the night.. that is one hell of a crazy night, with the 2 flaming i threw in and the tequila shots we made, not to mension the countless of bottles hahahaha... itu zaman duluu.. :)

Semenjak umrah things changed :) at least i became a better person then before. Wearing tudung, and indulging my self to religion. :) Although i'm still at the beginners stage of these tudung stuff and changing stuff, but my jai and friends will always be there to support me :)..

I hope this sem i'll gain another beautiful results :). I'm gonna pursue my masters in singapore or in UK, as a part time student. Because i still want the work experience. If god willing i would also like to pursue my PHD.. insyallah.. :)

Can't wait for raya.. hehehe can't wait to go back to kk.. yay!!! hehehehe

I MISS YOU SO MUCH JAI!!!! HEHE

your's truly:
deekay

The day the bride got sick

It was Thursday morning, just woke up, her fever has not even decrease its temperature. aTE THE "iBUSPAN" that the doc gave her. It did not do any good. Fever keep on coming after every four hours the pill was taken. She was vibrating even though the fan have been swithced off. The room was hot but she feels it was cold.
She took an oath, because that day is where she was suppose to see her husband, in which both of them have promised to meet. But alas, the bride got sick. What did she do? She took the pill and her fever has gone. So she took all the bravery, and took the afternoon bus. From there, she waited patiently for the bus to reach shah alam where she would take the KTM to Kl central.

The bus reached shah alam, and she called her friend to send her to " padang jawa ". The motorbike she rode was amusing. She reached KTM with a headache in her head. But she's still eager to go. And so, she went into the ktm and head to Kl central. In KL central, she straight away went to the lrt station and bought the wangsamaju ticket. She's just not seem to be patient to see her beloved husband.

Arrived at wangsamaju, and her dearly beloved husband is waiting for her. And so she rode on the motorbike with him. It was, the ecstatic moment, reaching to her loved ones with arms wide open. :) it was the only cure that she needed to eliminate the fever that was burning hot deep down inside her.

Even though that day the bride got sick, she still has the spirit to go into the arms of her husband even though she is staying far away from him. :)

tough love ;)

stay tune :)
deekay

When i tend to talk....

Sometimes things are discreet, that is when you're all curious about it.
When things got too discreet, you tend to find it out. Know why and what it is.
But sometimes, things that are discreet aren't always good. Some are bad. When i say bad i mean BADASS. Like for instance, knowing your partner is sleeping with another person. That's fucked up shit aight! Or knowing the person you trust before is backstabbing you or making shitty faces behind you.. that's fucked up!

The good news is....it is when you knew what your partner is gonna give ya ;).. hehe. Or knowing that this end of the month you'll be going on a vacay with your loved ones, or knowing that you're gonna have a surprise at your doorstep.. :)

So things... they are good and there are bad. If you have only good, then you may get bored of it. If you received only bad, then you'd go for suicide. So there must be balances between both of it. Creating equilibrium is important. Because life is about getting balances out of it.

Instances, that's the cause of adrenaline rush pumping from your veins. No i'm not talking about instant soup or whatever, i'm talking about instant "spontaneous". It keeps your adrenaline pump going. That is when the fun starts. You start of with a thought that things are going to be simple and normal, Out of a sudden, things happen in which you aren't prepared for. Then you tend to have this emotional feeling of afraid, nervous, tempted, anxious.. when things get hot, you tend to feel the excitement of it. You feel your heart rate increase, then you tend to do stuff that you normally won't do, because your brain may say its wrong, but your nature says it all.. and that's when you get to see the true colors of people. Aren't they beautiful.. :)

I talk alot of crap. And when i talk crap, shit happens. For instance, people tend to get annoyed by me. But who the hell cares.. xD

Some times stalking is good. You get to see what your partner or friend is doing in their everyday life. And you gain valuable information. Which is the positive side. Sometimes, stalking too gives you surprises. Example, finding a picture of your partner on the web with another person on the bed. That is fucked up! right? hahaha

Sometimes having best friends at a young age is crucial. Because its a trend. From Then and Now. But, you tend to feel annoyed when things don't turn out good. And so you avoid them. Avoid other people who wants to be close to you. Afraid that history is going to repeat itself all over again. Of course we gain some valuable experience from it, so, we've matured. And so we know who is faithful in friendship, and who is full of fucked up shit. :) Even meeting new people, you tend to know who they are from the moment you get close to them. Close call for experience and knowledge. Experience leads to knowledge, and so we apply them in our daily usage. :)

I think i've talk alot of crap, haha..
Till then;
Deekay...

dulu and sekarang

Dulu hyper active, tidak reti duduk diam
Sekarang, sedar diri, reti sudah mau duduk diam.

Dulu tomboi, mau sangat kekuatan cam lelaki,
Sekarang, nilai perempuan tu sangat la dinilai.

Dulu malas, kuat main jak,
Sekarang, malas tu kurang sudah, main pun kurang, focus lebih :).

Dulu, senyap sikit,
Sekarang, kena cakap celupar, bibiran, bnyk cakap. >:P

Dulu, banyak tukar2 "kawan lelaki",
Sekarang, setia pada yang satu, :)

Dulu, Boypren semua PALUI,
Sekarang.. alhamdullillah XD.

Dulu, slim,
Sekarang, chubby >:P

Dulu, tidak bertudung,
Sekarang, berutdung sudaaaa :)

Dulu, jahat, mabik la, cucuk langit la,
Sekarang, alhamdullillah sudah tidak :).

Dulu, kawan2 semua backstabber,
Sekarang, insyallah tidak akan.. :)

Dulu, kuat makan,
Sekarang, masih lagi kuat makan.. hahaha

Dulu, bersukan rajin,
Sekarang, bersukan pun masih lagi rajin.

Dulu, outspoken berterabur,
Sekarang, "organized".. hehe ;)

Dulu, rambut dark brown jak,
Sekarang, macam2 warna sudah.. :P

Dulu, loneranger
Sekarang, ada c jai bha sdh :D hehe

Dulu, kasar, ganas,
Sekarang, tidak suda cam tu.. hehe :D

Dulu, rajin begayut di fon rumah. Akibatnya kena tiau sm daddy sya. (bil mahal gink!)
Sekarang, sdh ada hp, tau2 sdh jimat crdt cam mn.. hehe :D

Dulu, boros,
Sekarang, I know what stuff is more important then those things that we already have.

Dulu, not resentful,
Sekarang, quite resentful.. ( ITS YOUR FAULT!!! )

Dulu, drive krita cam haram..
Sekarang, sudah experience macam2.. hati2 sdh :)

Dulu, semua boypren2 dulu curang-curang blkg sya,
Sekarang, alhamdullillah setia pd yg satu.. :) (Husband material) hehe ;)

Dulu, cita2 model, athlete, artist.
Sekarang, OWNER and DIRECTOR of "a" or "my" company, business woman, managing any institute of education and so on. ( BIG KAN )

Dulu, education mau sampai degree jak.
Sekarang, PHD.. see you all in 7 years time :)

Dulu, was known as little miss dayang.. :)
NOW, I am known as DAYANGKU MAZRIANAH a.k.a DEEKAY xD

DULU, asyik2 merenung, thinking what life is and thinking when am i going to find "HIM".
NOW, I found MUHAMMAD RUZAINI B HARON a.k.a JAI :)

itu jak la.. hehehe
stay tune:
Deekay