11 jan 10, Monday.. 11.21 P.M

11 jan 10, Monday.. 11.21 P.M

Its been 11 days since we’ve met on new year’s, and slowly I’m beginning to feel week. I miss him. A lot. I’ve done my studies for tomorrow’s pop quiz. Luckily I’ve been through this situation a thousand times before so I’m beginning to feel that I might get used to this feelings. Well I should be since he is going to be a seafarer soon, and we’ll probably meet around five times per year or even twice. Who knows, maybe he’s on board for only 6 month. Hopefully.
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I’m beginning to feel that life is really challenging. Daddy is teaching me about responsibility by cutting down my expenses. . How can I live??!! But like my Jai said, maybe there’s goodness behind all his teachings. I just pray to God that I could go through all this with his help of giving me strength to endure all his tests. Must be strong. Because in the working world, No one will pity you. All you have to do is work like a dog 24/7.

So for the past 6 month or maybe even less, I’ll be doing this journal, to jot down what I feel and learn while waiting for him to come back. .. I hope he knows that I really love him so much and that I really need him. 
There’s not much to say now, because there’s an absence feeling deep down my heart. And only My Jai could fill it up and not make it empty.  Like old Literature say, “Absence makes the heart grows fonder “.  And it certainly is growing fonder by the second. How I miss you so much Jai. You have no idea.
Luckily there’s always a way to make this feeling go away for a second. Being buzy!! Hehe.. When I was memorizing my note, the thought of missing him really fade away. I mean its good right?? Its like I could focus on my studies even though I’m missing him BADLY!! :D I got a feeling that he really is supporting me on what I do, just like I supported him in what he’s doing. 

I hope he realize that there is always someone waiting, supporting him and cheering him here..  Because that person really cares for him.
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11.34 P.M