something new

Its new, but its not raw. Its magnificent, but it ain't all that. All i can say is, i am gradually turning into a better person.

Its the end of my second semester, and this 4th of July, I'll be in my second year as a bachelor student. :)

I've gain two beautiful CGPA'S. And i am trying my best to continue my hard work and performance for my second year and my third semester. Of course, all thanks to Jai and my parents, for their endless support. :) I love you all.

Its true money ain't all that. Money won't buy you happiness that you want. Money won't buy you "pahala" and money creates distortion amongst people, the economy, the welfare of the country and also creates problems in some families. If you 're a muslim and you're having all this, Bukan ka diriwayatkan bahawa setiap manusia ada lah sama. Baik kaya atau miskin, kacak atau buruk, tinggi atau pendek, pandai atau bodoh, Kamu tetap akan dikembalikan kepadanya. Setiap manusia mempunyai rezeki yang berbeza yang dikehendaki oleh nya. So why bother the problems on your self while other people have much deeper problems than yours? I'm just saying that, problems are just a minor "cabaran" for human's from god. If you can solve it with your "iman" then insya allah kamu akan ditempatkan ke syurga, :)

I'm actually surprised at myself. I've changed, alot lately. Before this talking about religion or god makes me wonder more.. bak kata orang, jgn keruh kan air yang sudah tenang.. :) Patient is what consumes everything in what i do. And found many beneficial opportunities that surrounds me. :) Thank you Allah S.W.T for showing me the path of light. :) Its true what they said. "Bila niat seseorang utk mengerjakan umrah itu murni dan ikhlas, maka ianya akan berubah menjadi seorang mukmin yang solehah yang diredhai oleh Allah S.W.T".. insyaallah~ :). Although its a new start for me, but hey, My learning progress is quick and i found myself with bravery and wisdom that i must share with others. :)

Let the past be the past. For it no longer stays within me. All is forgiven and forgotten, :) However, I'm still not talking to all of you if you your self won't change, and i don't see why you deserve my attention and acknowledgment. The only thing that i can say is to send my deepest condolence to your remaining goodness.

Change because you want the best not just from the world you live in, tapi pada hari akhirat juga. :) Jai made me realize about faith and God. A true man of his word. And a man for my love. ;)



Stay tune;
Deekay :)

Feeling good!

Hey! its been awhile. OMG i felt like forever since i wrote anything in my blog..so anyhow, i went for my umrah last month. Before my umrah went to egypt for a little vacay ;) hehehe. Egypt is okay i think. Not that WOW with their facilities or people or things or stuff. But one thing about them is that, Egyptians are super 'PENIPU' and also they are sooooooo impatient! but so far, it is the most historical place in the world, because they have Pharaohs or in malay Firaun. I've had 2 and a half weeks of arabian food. So if my friends were to take me to an arabian reestaurant, maybe next time, in another 2 or 3 month or so?? xD naaaaah just kidding, but yea, not gonna eat any western food for about a week or so. :) here's some pictures.. xD... ok sgt cool.. i bru jak td tgk the premier of avatar the last air bender.. its sooo coooll!!! i mau tinguk!! its on july 2nd.. syg!!! come we go watch!!! hehehe.. :P






So yea, there it goes. Alexandria is such a beautiful city. Went to the beach, and it was beautiful. Lain dari yang lain. :) That night, we went on a cruise on a ship, around the nil river. It was fun. There were some entertainment. Belly dancing and all that. Gosh she was sexy! hahaha.. But overall.. it was worth while, :D. After all that, on the fifth day, we went to the airport getting ready to go to jeddah. So from there, we took the bus and went to madinah first for a 4 days stay. So, kena la bertudung. :P hihi..






Nampak ka the huge umbrella above us? one umbrella costs around 1 mil.. and those huge umbrella's are everywhere at the masjid nabawi.. (masjid rasullah) di sn la makam dia.. when we're going to raudah, it was very emotional bcz you are standing infront of his makam and on heaven on earth.. raudah tu is tempat rumah rasulullah.. :). And so after that, we went onto a 8 hour trip to mekkah.. of course la tiring.. huhuhu :P

So sampai jak mekkah, we pursue our umrah at night. And by all means, kaabah never look even more beautiful at night. And that time was the first time i saw kaabah, depan mata. selama nie solat pun just menghadap jak, but this time, kaabah is right infront of you. I feel closer to Allah S.W.T.. :)

We went everywhere including to jamratul ramah and etc... i can't remember the names.. hahaha.. nvr mind. here are some pictures in mekkah.. :)







tadaaaaaaaa...I did my umrah four times. it was fun actually and easy... sgt senang. :).. hehe.. sooo everytime solat, we went to the mosque. Jemaah sekali in the mosque you'll get 100,000 pahala.. bayangkan itu duit masuk ke syurga. Not just any mosque, it must be masjidil haram. :)

And so, we spent around 2 weeks in mekkah, 4 days in madinah and 4 days in egypt. So its almost a month i'm gone. huhuhu.. kesian my syg rindu-rindu meee.. i pun rindu diaaa.. xD.. :)

Its been 5 month and 2 weeks with jai. And everything's good. :) hehehe..





i lub him.. ;).. hehe...
I will start rajin blogging right now.. hehe kesian tul my blog. xD




So till then..
deekay.. :)

life and after life

Friends come and they go, lovers too come and go, children they don't come and go, faith too don't come and go, money come and go, things come and go but god, he ain't going nowhere.

People come when tehy see thatnyou are useful to them. But once you run out of "stock", they'll leave you straight away.

Nowadays, people seem to be attracted to material, these people are called materealistic. Well, i'm a meterealistic myself but i don't go around leaving people.

feelings, oh they ain't going nowhere because it is glued to our hearts. So therefore, we tend to have all this emotions going on in our lives.

sometimes people don't seem to realize that living in a world is only a figment of an imagination of what we want. Although its real, with all those emotional problems, family and so on.. but when we die, we ain't bringing it on to the after life.. that is a whole new story.

Yes me myself has sinned when i was a young chick. Having a life that was full of fun and enjoyment. But hey, whether its fun or not, di akhirat jgk tu yg paling penting. Dunia is only temporary, tp akhirat tu permanant. So choose.. i choose akhirat.. so that's why i'm leaving all those "haram" things behind me. Because... aku sudah PUAS.. but sometimes it is hard to leave those things, because its a part of our life, temption is my only enemy. But so far, with the help of god, family and my jai.. everything is in order. And there's nothing that i can't handle.. :)

jai oe jai.. i miss you so much.

Ayte.. its time to bath the little ones.. hehehe

till then;
Deekay :)

RELAX

Final sudah abis... and i am so happy... yay!! can't wait for next week. Can't wait for friday to come.. yay!!! gonna be seeing my jai,. hehehe... hurmmm... next week saturday is my flight to egytp. at 1.30 AM. standard la.. when i was going to England, our flight was at 2 in the morning. But that was in KK. We had to transit to another plane in KLIA. Dua kali karjaaaaaa... haih... but when we're going to china tu tidak pula transit in KL.. weird~ same goes to the other places..

she got me spending,
spending all that money on me...
bep..

my lovely lady lumps.

best pula nie club hits tau.. haih... kepingin mau pigi pulaaaaa... huhuhuhu...
saaaaaaaaaaayang... :P

till then...
bubye..

Final

I'm in my final blues right now. Its been such a short term for this sem. Just four month. Alot happened, and when i say alot i mean really alot. Work group turns out a place of disaster, assignments banyak yang tidak hantar, so what more?? But i'm still quite impressed with the marks given. Although my continuous assessment is a failure, but i ended up getting a B+ for it. Hehehe!!

i'm going off to egypt soon. In another next two weeks. Ada apa la di sn. :P
so far, final is kinda okay..

Can't log into my facebook account till the 9th may. My sayang is controlling my addictive facebook-ing attitude. teruk sgt meh?

oh well.. got into an accident last month. It was hell. was 360 on the road, hit the car that was coming from the opposite direction. My car mmg teruk gila la di dpn. Semua pecah. Engine pecah, radiator pecah, but pelik batteri tidak pula pecah. huhuhu.. cermin depan crack. The car that i langgar was a honda city i-vtec.. huhu.. itu lg dahsyat.. kereta masuk p paya. FIRST TIME ACCIDENT!! serious phobia.. huhuhu..

Anyway, nasib buli clain insurance, although it is not my insurance. But still, nasib.. huhuhu.. thanks to jepon for being there to help me. Jepon tu laki kwn aku.. nama dia ryn. hahaha.. satu kepala jgk tu. xD haih... bingung.. huhuhuhu

final.. 3 more papers to go!!! yea!!!

woot woot!!

Hey yall!! heeeeeeee :D

Its been quite sometime since i wrote anything in my blog. hehehe. Went out with jai yesterday to pavi, then to low yat, then to bb, had shisha there and it's just the two of us. Yay!! hehehe..
miss youuuuuu!!!! huuuaaaaaaaa :D

assignments and projects is taking its toll in me. Haih.. manyak kerja lorh~ had problems with the group members, but things are getting better i guess..??

Butchy was introduced to me on the 27th of march. he was given to me by my syg jai.. :) hehe.. he is soft, cuddly, cute and smells like jai.. yay!!! dayangku mazrianah like this! hehehe

Had a phone interview with shell for my scholarship. Nerve wrecking~ huhu.. i was so nervous the person who interviewed me had to repeat the questions. I was like "DAMN yoooo!!! hahaha... but the case study went well, interview lasted for an hour. Perghhhh~ so could you imagine all those applicants that they need to interview, telephone cost yall~ mahal2...

is taking a short break from my final project. Is currently editing my web site for the group project. The hyperlinks are all good~ pictures.. not that sure, font's colors and allignment border needs to be edited back. And please, its aloooooott!! But hey, i love work.. work work work work.. :D

cintamu,
yang kurasa,
walau tak terucap,
smakin dalam...

cintamu,
Tlah terukir,
Dibatas cintamu
selamanya..

tak pernah ku mencoba
lepaskan cintamu walau sesaat
sejujurnya diriku
terlalu sayang padamu...

ku ingin slalu dlm cintamu...

Dan tiada
yg kan memisahkan
selamanya...

cintamu,
yang terlintas.
terbias matamu,
selama ini...

adakah dihatimu,
terbersit satu harapan untukku,
ku berjanji selamanya,
kau selalu milikku,

satu cinta tak pernah ku mencoba,
lepaskan cintamu walau sesaat,
sejujurnya diriku terlalu sayang padamu....

ku ingin selalu dlm cintamu..

Favorite song.. :) me and jai.. hehee

I miss hardcore activities.. :(
This semester is quite boring.. because there's no spontaneous acitvity's..
Syg jom!! let's have some outdoor activities.. :D yea!!! hehehehe
let's play:

Futsal
fishing
hiking
mountain climbing
paintball
diving
swimming
go kart
scuba diving
camping
jet skiing
parasailing
bungee jumping
basketball
jogging
an escape to an island :)
archery
bowling
ice-skating
SUPER roller coaster!!
skateboarding??
boxing??
Sparring??
hunting??? hahahaha

nak buat smua nie with syg.. :) weeeeee... best2!! hahaha (bidon lebeyh) hehe

hurmmm... :) i wanna have fun with lots of activitites.. yea!

your truly:
deekay~

W.O.R.K

W.O.R.K= World organization for Rascal Kids

Haih.. work work work work. Everyday work. My work is those assignments and projects that you need to do everyday. I'm in fucked up shit. Had i 'full' dinner last. :) hehehe.. celebrated my birthday together with nina. Had, barbecued chicken, udang, fish, lamb, steak, udang soup and many more. Sgt2 full!! hehe.. thanx for the dinner! hehe.. and deserts waw the cake cutting.. hehe. had Baskin Robbins cake.. mmm~ (Habis diet plan!)

Just downloaded macromedia Dreamweaver 8 punya installer. is making a website now. weeeeeeee... i feel soooo.. indigenous, because my group is making a website on cultural heritage. I'm doing about sabah. Check it out in the dictionary for those who do not know the meaning of indigenous is.. :P

Am i being a rascal?? i am annoying.. hahahaha.. haih... tia pa.. kerja web nie senang.. BOLEH BHAAAAA!!! weeeeeee.... xD...

haih... haters= Your face looks like a pussy. Patut la~ :)
lovers= I love you!!!

Miss my jai and my butchy~ huhuhu...

Passing through

its been such a long time since i wrote anything in my blog. Feels just like yesterday i post something new. :)..

Anyway, next month is my final. This is semester is quite short. But the work given by the lecturers was like hell (kononnya). I've been staying at home goinng back and forth to the university for 2 month now. Stayed only a month in college. After that, its kota damansara-UiTM-Kota damansara. Went for meatball dinner in ikea with naz and sut just now. Naz introduced to me a camera that is worth RM100. It was classic. You don't need any batteries but you only need a film for it though. Had fun with the camera. :). (Camera pasang sendiri tu). haha xD

Jai is back here in KL. But he went to mantin for a short stay. Was, worried when he asked my permission to go to mantin. Well you know mantin is like right. *sigh*. He'll be staying with his friends at block........ hahahaha! xD

Today is my birthday! And i'm 21. FREEDOM AGE! yea~ hehehehe

Will be off to EGYPT after my finals on the 16th may. Really need a vacation in Cairo. They say Cairo is a beautiful place. That is where you should do your shopping. :) yea~ is in dire need of Egyptian cotton. My Egyptian cotton 'baju kurung' is not enough. The fabric is soft and comfortable. Made me addicted to it. haih...~ Oh and I'm gonna meet my friend wan sherhan. He is studying medicine there. :)









I want to visit all of this places.. weeeee... especially the jazz bar. Itu pula maksud c wan sherhan pasal pompuan gelek.. muahahahahahahaha xD!! egypt here i come.. :) hehehe.. and it seems that, when i'm on vacation, my syg pun is on vacation. hahaha.. what are the odds... hehehe.. i'm going to egypt, and he's going to singapore.. on vacation at one of the island.. best like pg island bhaaa... hehehehe :P hehe.. so anyway.. stay tune :)

Deekay~

No wine and cheese Party 2010 (Bachelor of law)

Went to a party on wednesday night in uitm shah alam. First of all it was a rockstar theme. And i don't have any clothes that look like a rockstar. Second, the air condition in the car was like hell and so i drove all the way to shah alam with the windows open. Third, there was traffic in subang and so i was sweating like hell. Fourth, Luckily i did not use my 5 inch heels or else driving would be far greater then hell.

Arrived at nieja's house at 8 p.m. Parked my car infront of her house. And so second base touch up in her house while waiting for wani to come pick us up with her ride. They were all using heels and i'm the only one using my cute pumps. hehe. Wani arrived, and so all of us went to DBS in uitm shah alam.

The environment was crazy! It was like a gig! And so we watched. My friend udang played his guitar on stage. Bidon Cassanova! hehehe.. if you're reading this.. i mampu gelak jerwh~ xD.. haha

Nyway, towards the end of the night, wani exchange her heels for my pumps because her feet hurts. She's not used to use heels that high maybe so its understandable. Luckily it fits. So i used her heels la. Her heels was only around 4 inch So its not that high, (for me la). And so, bidon cket la jln2 kat party tu.. hheheh..
Evryone dresses like a rockstar and it was awesome. Everyone was pretty.

I on the other hand keluar dr theme rockstar. Oe dgn fana gak. Hahaa. And to sum it all up me and aj crashed the party. Oe yea~ Smua pelik and surprised, asal dk ade kat cni.. hehehe xD. Lots of people changed. They are not the same as before when all of us were in uitm kedah.

And so, here'e the picture:






So stay tuned
Yours truly
Deekay~

Ruzaini.M

This is the man whom i dearly love :)




Yes, his name is Muhammad Ruzaini Haron. And yes i'm in love with him. He's the guy that made me happy. He's the guy that made my pale sorrow face glows again. He's the one who made my life meaningful. Ladies and gentlemen.. i introduce to you the man i love..

Muhammad Ruzaini Haron. But people call him jai :)

A JB person. A year older than me. He used to study in a LAME college called LAGENDA College in Seremban in which he totally agreed that it is such a waste of time studying there, because the certificate is NOT recognized by any organization. So yea. You're just wasting your time and effort studying there.

He is very active in sports. He used to be fat like me, but now he's toned down. Which is surprisingly chemistry'd towards our slimming down theory. Both of us toned down at the same time and both of us are now having a new life together. coincidence?? We can't fight of fate. Unless we want that thing to happen. I pun tdk sangka that we would lead these life together. And both of us can't get rid of each other because both of us loved each other so much. And why would i want to get rid of him?? Like omg, I want him!

He wants to be a seafarer. In which it is a sad and lonely thing to do when you have a girlfriend. But that is what he wants, and i will always support him in many ways that i can. :)

As the saying goes "when bad things come to an end, good things will appear. As long as you don't repeat your mistake, then karma will not hit you." :)

He waited for 2 years, and i waited for... well jujur la.. i waited for 3 years for someone that really deserve me. :) I was in a relationship in that 3 years of waiting. And during the relationship, ok secara jujur, it was hell! The glow from my face was gone for 2 years. I noticed from my previous picture, i always looked pale and unhappy. Even though i smile, you could see through and look at how unhappy i am. Weird, sometimes people would suddenly stop and say why am i looking sad. Well, that explains it.

Well, my friends are now telling me that i look brighter. :) yay!! hehehe.. I'm so in love with you jaaaaaai~~~~~ hehehe

Well i just hope that he's the last one. Insyaallah, AMIN~ :)

Kesian dia penat~ hehehe

29.01.10 8.41 P.M.. Friday

29.01.10
8.41 P.M.. Friday

I’m in my room. Sitting down, listening to the music while viewing my photo album in my laptop. My wallpaper picture is the picture of me and jai. Damn it! Every time i Look at his photo I go lonely because I miss him so much!! Even before I look at his photo I’m already missing him like crazy. So could you imagine the double encounter of “ rindu-ing “ feeling I’m having?? Haih~

Anyhow, my work all done. No more work except for those assignments. Hurm~ gonna work on the assignments soon. Very soon.

I miss my jaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaai!! Huhuhu.. my dirty clothes sdh mau sampai separuh already. So gonna wash them soon. Music is my assistant and a friend when I’m feeling lonely. Because it kinda helps you sooth your feelings silently.  So therefore I LOVE MUSIC! Hehe

JAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAI!! I need yyyooouuu!! Sayang tau x baby need syg beside baby..??? hurmm.. I’m crazy about youuuuu!! I don’t care of what people say ( if got la ), all I know that you have a sincere heart..  that is RARE from a boy~  that is your asset sayang… 

I am wondering if I’ll be strong without seeing you for such a long time. But then again, absence makes the heart grows fonder..  Sayang, I want you to know that there’s always someone waiting for you here.. no matter how far you are, either on sea, air or land, there will always someone here who is waiting for you patiently, waiting to hug you, waiting for your presence beside her, waiting for you to hold her hands, waiting for you to make her laugh, waiting for you so that she could make your day seem so special…  You are one lucky guy to have such a caring girl.. 

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH JAAAAII!!!!

8.53 p.m