A new feeling, A new set of behavior and the unlimited experience learning by me :)

Break ups, Betrayal, Deceived, Lied to, Back stabbed, Psycho ed at, and etc... I've experience almost each and everything. And, i have grown out of it. I actually feel lucky that i've been mostly involved in this negative impacts. Most people would just go berserk over it. But not me, Hell yea not me. I analyse it, learn from it and make my own rules about it. By doing so, i've become alot stronger then before. The old me was like, quiet, just follow people around and what they say just to make them happy, Does not have that high self esteem level like my new self and being stepped on the head. That was the old me. The new me is much more different then the old me. But i am still impressed with the old me because she could withstand those impacts for god damn 3 years of high school. And to sum it all up, she found away to handle these types of people.

Last week was the most fuckiest ( my new word xD ) day ever. Not week, that last week was just an impression. Anyway, was having these reunion thingy with my old schoolmates, whom i have not met for the past 2 years. And so yea got to meet'em all, But it was awkward. Fucking awkward!! To me its like i'm invisible, tp drg yg beria ria yg mau buat, tnya aku bila mau buat, tmpt pa smua. Fine~ And so, what i noticed is that, they never changed, i could still see that immature behavior of them. I thought they've grown out from it, But sadly no. Still treating me the same, Ignoring me.. Fine~ And so, luckily, kevin was in malaysia at the moment. He too just came back from aussie for the past 2 years, and he's like god damn friendly!! being friends with him since primary school. And he is just mature and open. And so, luckily he called me! asked me whether to hang out or something, and in my freakin' head i said yes, yes i need to get out from here. And so, i said goodbye to them and went to kevin's place instead. I lost alot of time hanging out with those retards.

Really need to buy a new bag. My old one koyak ody.. and i managed to stitch it up, but sadly the bag koyak lg. haih! i really love that bag. Oh well, its just a casual bag where i always bring it everywhere with me. Simple yet elegant. :).. Need to find a replacement for that bag A.S.A.P!!!

I always though that i am mature when i was in high school, pro found by the blind love that is coming in and out from me. And each and every relationship i had though me new things and from that pin point, i made a simple conclusion, Which made me (present) well aware of my surroundings. Right now then i understand what is meant to be mature and right now is where i realized and believed that maturity will not give you the bump on your head unless you've experienced life. Whether is love or general, each and every experience is precious. And i thank you for those people for giving me those experiences, Even though they are one fucked up assholes who can't live a proper life. Dumbass!! xD

These new feelings, behaviors are just the beginning of my life and future. Although they are still more things to learn, We'll just learn it on the way to achieve the greatest goal in our life. :) A new life and future, starts with a new behavior that has been polished by experiences in life. :)

So stay tune;
Deekay~