New Breath~

Everything seems to fly by so fast and we did not even notice how we've changed over the time. Pretty much i am quite over by my previous meaningless relationship. I was dumb, young and childish back then who keeps on thinking about love, love and love. Who accepts anyone by never knowing their ill intention towards me. I was quite thrown back against the wall when the person who taught me alot of things suddenly disappeared from the misty relationship i had once before. It was misty because there was no connection between the both of us although it was a 2 years and 10 month relationship. And what i noticed and learn about him was that, he is still caught up from he's past which he would never let it go. Made him crazy, psycho and nuts. And that is where i learned alot about guys, not just from my guy friends, but i owe it to him for showing it to me. But telling and showing it to me was he's BIGGEST mistake, from using the pin point of he's fact i used it against him, and aghast, He's the type of guy of which i could never trust, but would give my love to him due to he's lonely-ness issue. Since the beginning of our relationship, i never did trust him.

And so, bla bla bla. I've started a new breath for me. That special someone made me the happiest girl alive! xD. I owe it to him for bringing me back on my feet. Although i was already on my feet but he brought me to a newer stage, a stage that i have never met before. It would be impossible for me to like another guy from what i experienced from my previous relationship. But God gave us love, and maybe this is my luck or just a figment of my imagination that influences my feelings. Who knows, but i'll just keep on following the flow. This time i'm gonna take it slow and easy, don't rush things, analyze and evaluate carefully on this one. Because i am not gonna let history repeat it self over and over again. I've had enough of that fairy tale love that was never true from the beginning. Well, just hope that the person feels the same as i am. I can't ask much, because we may never know the outcome. But keep on holding tight to it because it might be the chances that we really want. I just want a person who understands life as i do. Mature and understands the concept of living life in reality. I'm just tired of those people who keeps on enjoying, enjoying and enjoying due to either, they'll never "SEDAR" or just pure culture shock. Pity-ing about them is so not the issue, but rather observing them and make analysis about them so that, when we meet the same people of their kind, its easier to explain it to them so that they realize their doing.

I am leading a new life here people. And i'm loving it. And i owe it to Allah S.W.T, my family and that "Special" Person whom i dearly knew for just a week ago.. :).
I just hope that in the future we have something going on.. who knows right. ;)

Till then:
Deekay~